I guess the purpose of this blog is to document my journey into the taboo world of BBC. To help explain how a straight white alpha male who loves women can become completely obsessed with the Superior Black Alpha Male.
I'm a 32 year old masculine white guy and I've been straight all my life... up until recently. I don't recall when it first began, when I first started becoming aware of Big Black Cocks. When I would search for porn my eyes began to notice thumbnails with the contrast of a black and a white body. I'd get a jolt of excitement and then watch a hot white girl get pounded by a huge black cock and I would cum the hardest I've ever cum. In my head I told myself I was watching for the sexy white girl and I never search specifically for IR porn... at the start anyway. I had no clue the world I was stepping into.
So pretty soon I started specifically searching for IR porn. I always thought I had an average size cock and I never really believed the whole Black cocks are bigger thing. I never realized just how big Black Cocks were. I was in awe, my mouth would open and my breathing would get so heavy. My heart would start racing and my cock would get so hard. I would shoot a massive load and cum so hard and I realized I wasn't looking at the girl anymore. I freaked out and felt so guilty. I would always swear I wouldn't let it happen again. I was so confused and couldn't figure out what was going on with me. I tried to stop and go back to regular porn many times but the Big Black Cock was out of the bag and it wasn't going back in.
It took me a while but I began to accept what was happening to me. I had no choice, I couldn't resist anymore. I began watching exclusively BBC porn. I was blown away by what I had been missing out on all those years. I realized I would never be able to compete and that was a tough pill to swallow but at the same time I started to notice the sheer masculinity and power of these Black Men. It was intoxicating. It wasn't the huge cocks anymore. I was fascinated by these Strong, Powerful Black Men. I began to worship them. I fantasized about serving them and being used by them. I worship them because of the power they have over me. When I watch BBC and whiteboi porn all my masculinity fades away and I become a helpless sissy and I love how that makes me feel. I want to see just how far I can go. This is just the beginning...
